B a man

hey love.
its two plus am in the morning. OOOWEEE!
haha. i saw my sister blog and i have this compulsive need to follow suit.

I have been generally ok the whole day. Maybe the mum-talk wasn't so smooth and stuff but i really had a nice day. I'm thankful for the many nice days.

I should really work my ass off. especially for the exams. I want my As but i feel so unmotivated after being slapped around for all my presentations and quizzes and whatnots. Haiz. i dunno. I sometimes dun feel i'm in the right course. I like my examinable topics but i hate those bloody project-based thingy. Its just so dry and boring. HAHA. ok i know it should be the other way around but i feel like studying and reading and exams are more fun than projects and presentations. Its all so stupid. I know its to prepare us for the future lah, helps with our presentation and communication skills but it doesnt mean i have to like it right?

So yeah that's one thing i dun like right now. i just cant wait to graduate. i hope next semester would be more fun or something coz i'm getting bored.i should work hard for the three papers to redeem myself atleast. Cs are unbearable.

The Blue man's still depressed. But my gut feeling was right.
a) he's stuck in the past [ex gf kinda past]
b) he's more emotional(unstable) than me
[uhuh! exactly. who can be more emotionally unstable than me??]
c) for a dude he's impractical.
d) he's actually arrogant
(not like verbally or through his actions, but through his opinions and mentality. yes i i mean it although i know one factor affects the other..)
e) i'm bored of plastic perfection

Blondie on the other hand... he's loads of happy things. Which confuses me happily.
a) he's not past-talking
b) laugh and makes me laugh over i dunno what
c) he's sickeningly simple-minded (too, very much) but that makes him practical. he misses? he calls. and call and call till he gets through.
d) he's humble but hmmm..
e) i'm dealing with the imperfection. its like a breathe of fresh air sometimes.

Backstabber dude is happily attached.
a) he's always buih-ing ppl
b) great conversationalist
c) lies
d) i think he secretly caused a lot of friendship problems
e) i'm actually happier without a fren like him

ive got no idea why i even bother to include him in my blog lah. but well just because i feel like disliking him alot today. haha.


i vote for blondie as my happy pill.
i'm talking five years later and thats why i must work my way through.
achieve wad i can and hopefully be a better person.
is this wad it means accepting someone as he is?
i dunno whack. but hmmm i'm positive it would be ok anyway. :)


i miss the sunrise phonecall.

love,
sunshine.