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so lonely
the black black sky.

Music

who i want to hear:
The Rasmus
Avenged Sevenfold
John Legend
Robin Thicke
Sophie ellis bextor
Kylie Minogue
Nickelback
Matchbox twenty
Rob thomas
Ashanti
T.I

just a few that i can think of right now.
:)
i'm bored

sometimes its just so empty.

Another Day

So far girlfriend, I know your secrets
Keep them again and again until the end
Unspoken, when I'm with you I believe
That you always seem to know just what I need

More important, than the go and coming
Of our menfolk and all those troubles
When I'm broken, we will always find a way
To help each other through another day
Another day, another day
No matter what the weather brings I know the same
Our path is laid, to brighter days
We will help each other through another day

Though our time is not always perfect
When it works out the rest is worth it
Make the effort, to see things eye to eye
And then our friendship means we're more than getting by
When I grow tired, you're on my side
We will help each other through another day

So glad you understand my world, my world
I'm always here for you girl so you know
You don't have to make it on your own

Here forever, we're gonna brave the storm together
To sunny weather
It's unspoken, we'll always find a way
To help each other through another day
Another day, another day
In the big world we're finding our own way
But here I stay, come what may
You can rely on me to listen all the way
'Cause here I'll stay
Come what may
And we will help each other through
another day

27th Day of Ramadhan

i know i should be thankful for everything.
but sometimes it gets suffocating.
i feel like my privacy has been breached.
and that i'm being controlled way too much.
its one thing to help and another to be expected to help.
its my holidays, why cant i sleep till way late?
its still only eight hours if you ask me.
just that my clock moves a bit differently than others.
and its not communication if you're screaming at me.
i used to remember how i fear her.
i think i still do sometimes.
i dunno.
its crazy you know.
i try my best not to scream back or fight or quarrel.
because i dun want to start another war.
its enough already.
plus the fact that raya is coming.
let it be festive.
Shimi said maybe its not that i cant but i dun want to.
i did think so too because planet mentioned the same thing.
but its not true.
i just cant.
because i know there's so many things i wanna do.
that i dun.
what i dun want is to cause the wrath of a woman or disappointment.
but its just not fair sometimes how other people get
the freedom like that from their parents and still not appreciate it.
i know i should just go ahead with my other ideas like the other people who's going through this, just go do my thing and not worry too much.
but i know my life is short and i dun want to enjoy and do things now and regret later.
you wouldn't know what you have till its gone.
well its ok.
i still love her everyday.
and i treasure her.
so i'll let it be because i think she's worth it.
atleast till i cannot take it.

that aside,
syawal is coming real soon.
i'm excited.

love
Sunshine

What about now?

just because its really cold right now.
i feel like i'm in snow.
and i'm all happy all of a sudden.
its like time to party big time honey.
i like the cold.
it reminds you of everything good and close to heart.
i watched the hills and the three seasons of laguna beach.
oh i so wanna be in love.
or at least animated.
haha.
yeah i should heed shimi's advice.
its time i go out of my bubble.
hahaha.
love.
whatever you like.

23rd Day of Ramadhan

hey there.
I baru buka puasa. And i feeel like writing up a whole big chunk of words on my blog. haha. the best thing is of course the part where i really got nothing interesting to say. so well lets just recap what i did yesterday. other than getting sick, haha, i went out with planet and the prince and the prince's stepbro. it was fun trying to communicate in bahasa indonesia. haha. thank you for The HEad Chef that watches alot of tv. hahaha. other than that well.. hmm. i was just glad to like talk to shimi on the phone. its almost as if i havent had human contact for days! its so sad. hahaha. hopefully tmr when we meet its gonna be fun as always :):) i have been twisting alot of oreos lately. i still cant decide whether i like to eat it twisted and separated or as a sandwich. hehe. i've been crazy about it since i watched this hallmark christmas movie which stars sabrina the teenage witch and this oreo advert on mtv.com. i found out that i like to eat it both ways. just so long its crunchy. haha. bring on the cute things cause i'm gonna feast in a few days time!! woohoo!


Selamat berpuasa semua :)

love,
Sunshine

20th Day of Ramadhan

Dah takda kasih ke dalam hati kita sampaikan kita harus kejam
dan zalim,
dan marah,
dan sentiasa bersedih.
Lupakah kita kepada ilahi
yang telah melimpahkan nikmat dan rahmat cinta
kepada diri kami?

this is the reason why i can get through my tough times.
because i feel in love with the one that created me,
the people that accepts me,
that forgives me
that loves me.
we are so blessed sometimes we forget.

so dun forget.


Love,
Sunshine


Ask the snow what it is, ask ice ask wind, sea and sky,
Ask also the whale, the crait, the bear and the wolf,
Ask wisely, not one will not tell you name and self... But what am I?
Lionwolf(by tanith lee)

qns!

1.Are you wearing a necklace, who got it for you?
nope.

2.Who is the main person you talk to daily?
The Head Chef and Planet and Gadget Man

3.When was the last time you talked to number 2?
few minutes ago

4.Where is your special boy/girlfriend?
on the way. HAHA

5.Did you enjoy your weekend?
the saturday was good so faR.

6.Could you live without a computer?
yes... hmm no, i need to blog. haha

7.Could you live without your phone?
yes.

8.Suppose you see your boy/girlfriend kissing another person; what would you do?
just walk away. give a good lashing later. possibly blackmail. break up and then go out for a feast after that.

10.Look at your recent calls, who was your last call from?
shimi

11.If you were given $10,000 would you spend it or save it?
spend


12.How many different people have sent you a text in the last 20 msg's?
8

13.Are you listening to music right now?
yes! dingin by Ziana Zain haha.

14.What exactly are you wearing?
jubah and long pants

15.When was the last time you were truly, completely happy with your life?
like now? hahaha.

18.When was the last time you ran?
wow. hmmm.. july i think hahah.

19.What should you be doing?
resting, writing down my to do lists for tmr and pla for socio outing

20.What is the status of the last person who texted you?
am not online

21.Do you have a cut on your pointer finger?
no!

22.Do you have any friends named Robby?
used to have a classmate named robbie.

23.Do you get annoyed when people dont text back?
only sometimes

24.Who were your last 3 texts in your phone?
rabbit, planet and shimi

19th Day of Ramadhan

BEEN LONG HUH?

hello!
hmm.. i dunno what to really say.
other than
my super ex bf is launching an album soon!
so look out for it.
fitty's mum got hospitalised.
she fell and injured her back.
get well soon auntie.
and i have this power fever-flu back.
at night i'll be okay..
in the afternoon i'll just go crazy.
i'm suprisingly not missing nonsense.
just plain angry and disgusted.
my phone is at its worst or best behaviour.
its not working.
a sign?
hahaa
anyway holidays are fun.
i need someone cool to date.
i need to go all girlfriend on my girlfriends..
and
i just need to update my book collection.
seriously.
i've been reading war-fantasy novels it gets a little depressing.

Lionwolf.
dun read if you are faint hearted.
excellent stuff though. :)

love,
sunshine

12th Day of Ramadhan

Hello sayang.
dah nak buka ni so i just make it sweet and simple.
yesterday was eventful.
semalam i actually killed a cockroach with my diary!
yes!
heartbreaking gila.
haha
and i finally watched ayat-ayat cinta.
omg i so love the character aisha.
fahri is ok.
not maria though.
haha.
and i think i know what i want already.

selamat berbuka :)

love,
sunshine

11th Day of Ramadhan

love,
good news....



Marketing Intelligence
B

EBZ2003
Engineering Economy & Management Accounting
C

EPZ2001
Organisational Behaviour
A

EQM2001
Process Management & Innovation
B+

ESZ2001
Decision Analysis
B

GCD1002
Applied Principles for Effective Living 2
Pass

GSS1004
Introduction to Sociology
A


Total Credit Units earned to-date : 77 cu
Cumulative Grade Point Average obtained to-date : 3.3

i passed!!!!!!!
alhamdulillah.
ok jom celebrate.

Sweet dreams

on a plane to nowhere,
black,
blue sky..

I LOVE SHIA!

without you/me/us/he/she/we/them and everything else

the waste of the century happens
- to not be people who made mistakes in the past and present but people who makes the mistakes of thinking they are right and therefore is without mistakes.
- to be people who believe they are stuck in very sad stories and have/has no choice of getting out of their endless troubles and sadness, blame fate for everything that goes wrong
- to be people who do not have faith in themselves and their families and their other loved oes, enough to continue trying their best to be better everyday
- to be people who judge other's weaknesses and manipulate them and achieve their success through other people's downfall

it is very sad.
--------------------

i've moved on.

6th Day of Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum.
HEHE. Chey chey chey.
MEntang2 time puasa.
I've been getting lazy to blog or go online
ever since
this lappy is at planet's room.
But hmm. I guess i just realise how curly my
hair can be if i don't comb it in the morning.
HAHA.
HAve i told you that my current room is a store room too?
Yeah and it gets to me sometime because
everyone just keeps coming in without knocking,
invading my private space.
How can you sleep peacefully knowing
that your dad is in the same room looking for a screwdriver?
that your mum is looking for her old curtain?
SO IRRITATING LORH!
hahahaha.
Abeh they still like purposely talk to you
just because well you happen to be lying on
the bed breathing[trying to get some sleep.]
HAHA!!!
IRRITATING!!!!
hahaha.
but i guess i just have to live with it.
My life has never really been private or anything.
So its not that bad right?
Right?
But still people don't know me that well.
AHAHA.
I'm suddenly dreaming of marrying this
super beriman and sweet guy.
No idea how that comes to this conversation but yeah.
Pelik betul.
I'm At the fourth and last chapter of Sunshine.
I'm always so sad when i reach this chapter.

Robin Mckinley,please write the second volume or something.
please please please.

I've decided on one of my thousand birthday wishes.
[tak tahu malu belum lepas 2008 dah wish dulu for 2009.]
HAHA.
talking about birthdays,
HAppy birthday Farahyn!
6th Sept baby.

ok i gotta go carltex for my digestives chocolate biscuits.

Selamat Berpuasa and happy holidays to the non-muslims!
[if you;re having holidays! ahhaa]

love,
Sunshine

4th Day of Ramadhan

hey!!
i went out with Old Lady to her fren's place.
We saw this beautiful baby.
haha.
Then i met shimi for awhile.
[like finally!]
and we went on our mini shopping trip at jurong point.
Then when i went home,
i found out that rabbit is coming over to break fast with us.
On the dining table, five of us,
same sitting positions,
just like old times.
Simply put today was simple but perfect for me.

Nothing Else to say.

Love,
Sunshine.


"Biarkanlah,
biarkan aku hidup sendirian,
tak ingin ku kenangkan kisah lama.."

3rd Day of Ramadhan

Sorry the post came in late.
I had a very busy day.
Was out with mum and helping her throughout.
It really is nice to spend time with her.

Ramadhan has been nothing more than fun-filled thus far.
haha. ok too early to say.
But so far i've been busy
from morning till night.
The only rest-time i have is like hmmmm
6.30 am to 11.30am.
After that my life starts ticking away.
Well actually my life is still ticking away
during that five hours... just that its hard
to notice when you are knocked out flat.
Ha-ha.

I thought i was addicted to Cddburry's Roast Almond.
Well i was right. Haha. Its like having a healthy
brown nutty vegetable instead of dark and leafy green ones.
EVERYDAY.
yeah yeah.
i know its unhealthy but zip it.

## Initially i thought of writing something smart
about what happened in the morning.
The Ant Invasion and what i thought
the policy in Singapore would be like if
the mothers in Singapore were to pro-create
at the rate of the Queen Ants.
I bet that if we had to rely on numbers
to win a war against the Army of Ants,
the women would just flat out give up
and leave their husbands.
Simply put there were too many ants.
Oh i also thought that since my daddy would have atleast
by now have called me his little princess three times,
that make sme a princess by right.
And therefore sharing a bed with a colony of ants
isn't approriate.
"You don't belong here."
i would say with a super snobby tone.
Well, intially. HAHA.
so this is just a snippet of my long story. ##

I hope to spend time with my girl soon.
It has been kinda lonely.

:(

But anyway selamat berpuasa.
:)
off now.

Love,
Sunshine

Letter Number 9

2nd Day of Ramadhan.

Dearest Future Boyfriend,
how are you today? It has been a long time since i wrote to you. Alot of things happened. Like for example a short visit from everyone from the past, auntie jitters, Blondie went blonde, I've got my own room finally and so much more..
It doesn't sound alot only because i cant remember what happen every time and i couldn't blog about everything because this is a public place. And since alot of things are personal, you just cant go public with them. That and the fact that i really forget fast. So i don't blog about them.
But you know, eventually love leads me back to you.
When he pops back i just assumed that well its irrelevant to write to you. Because everytime he comes back, it only bring loads of tears of what could have been, of blind faith in a companion and alot of deception. This leads me to believe that there is no such is thing as love or whatever related to guys. I think guys are plain stupid. But then, there's my dad, sufyan, perhaps orang tua and few others.. and of course you.
It must be real.
love i mean.
OK but in general i think guys are dumb. So you better watch out.
Anyway i almost got myself a date for Thursday, but thankfully somehow it didn't happen. I'm dead tired. And although i have declared to the world that these two weeks are for me and my family and shimi and far. apparently some people are stupid enough to mess with me or rather in their own life so that i would have to be involved. Its only the second day of ramadhan and i can tell you I'm already not sleeping enough! We have to discuss talking on the phone twenty four hours. I dun think i can handle it. But that's personal so yeah..
I'm also thankful for the cancelled date because, i didn't really feel like dating. I'm more like "OK lets get this over with. At least i have a date this year right?"
But the more i think about it, i dun give an eff about having dates. N i shall patiently wait for you to come and then we can date like every time we can date. So you'll be my date at long last that lasts long right?
Oh I'm so not going for class chalet.
Mum didn't let me. And I'm too messed up already to even fight with her over a class chalet. So I'm not going.
these few days I'm so cold, i dun sleep with the fan o, yet i wrap my silly self in my double folded blanket.[double folded because i want it to be bulky and thick.]
today i miss hashima and no one else. I'm honest. maybe because I'm too tired to feel anything.

i should go now.
see you in my dreams.
Love,
Sunshine

1st Day of Ramadhan part 3

hey there.
It really was a very long day for me.
i told you earlier i didn't really sleep peacefully.
After sahur, subuh, and what not i was awake to
accompany rabbit to the hospital.
After that we went to NTUC
because she needed to go shopping.
Guess who ends up carrying all the groceries??
And then we went to her place first to put her stuff,
[this took like 1/2hr]
after which went back to mom's place.
The moment i reached home, mom was like
"oops, i need... I'm short of.. could you..."
ha ha.
So i went to the market again after praying.
I finally stopped all shopping activity at 3.
I had a small shower [ok, i know there's no such thing as a big shower either. but just bear with me]
And then i cleaned my room because of the Ant Invasion.
[i will elaborate later]
by four i knocked out cold and woke up only at 6.30pm.
and of course started the mad rush to iron clothes,
helped mum prepare food.
WOW.
i want to sleep.
ZZZzzzzz..
HAHAH.
Its already midnight lah!
Penat!!!!!

Ant Invasion
They are everywhere.
I lost it.
i just lost control.
The final straw was when i saw them crawling on my windows
and on my FRESH FLOWERS!!
So jahat lah!
I polluted alot today spraying insecticide.
I cannot help it.
Its so irritating and moving.
EEEEYEEEE!!!
GERAMS!

Well that's all for now.
Today was a nice day too despite alot of things.
i feel like writing to my future boyfriend soon.
Been quite some time.

Love,
Sunshine.

1st Day of Ramadhan part 2

yes hello and good morning.
thanks for the existent of blogger.
it helped keep me awake enough for subuh.
anyway i have this irritating flu which is irritating.
let me tell you why.
1) i dunno where it comes from. scientifically and as a figure of speech.
2) i dunno what caused it
3) it comes and goes and comes back again. (hmm reminds us of bad ex-bfs huh)
4) it just seems endless. you start wondering how much liquid you actually have inside your system. especially for someone like me who don't drink water that much.
5) it just is!!
get well soon fellow flu-infected persons. heee :)

anyway i dun feel like i've slept enough.
planet came into my room to blog
and i felt as if i was blogging with her too.
till 4. and then of course waking up for sahur.
and then i've been on the net from then till now.
i can only sleep for 1/2 hour because i'm accompanying rabbit
for her appointment.

old lady is in screaming mode.
it gets to me sometimes.
to scream back or not to scream back, that is the question..
not.

selamat berpuasa.

love,
Sunshine

1st Day of Ramadhan

Let me first put up a youtube video which is related to Ramadhan.