Such a peaceful night...

hello.
Selamat berpuasa semua!

I've got so many pictures to upload.
But i'm damn lazy lah.

My room is damn colourful right now.
Exactly how i liked it.
Very girlpower.
HAHA.
Thanks to beloved mum and dad.

Sunshine by Robin has been a blast!
I'm still so hooked and mesmerized by it.

Holidays are fun!
I shall sleep early today.
oops. I meant earlier.
Long day tomorrow and tuesday.
I hope everyone's gonna have a great week this week.
I just feel like good things are gonna come.

To motorboy: dun be rude to me.
I'm a very fun loving person tapi jangan attitude eh.
orang nak puasa seh. Jangan cabar.

To hashima: I MISS YOU!

To farlina: thanks for joining my mob!
means ALOT to me :)

hehe!
ok i gtg!

Love,
Sunshine.

i wonder what that smell of jasmine means..

It doesnt rain forever.

Hello Baby.
I haven't cleaned up my room yet.
haha. Yes i know I've said many times i would.
But i only managed to vacuum the floors, change my pillow casings,
wipe the top surfaces of everything dusty,
place fresh flowers in my room!,clear my thrash cans..
today i was supposed to continue with cleaning
my closet and books and stuff..
but after doing a duet with The Head Chef
in the kitchen for about five hours already,
I'm a goner. hahah.
But it has been great you know.
Spending time with her for my holidays.
Cooking and cleaning and teasing each other.
I've just realised it has been quite a while since i did anything
with just her, me and dad.
Right now i am just taking my 1 hour break so here i am, blogging about my life.

Yesterday i dunno what's going up with my other side.
Haha. I was just plain depressed and feeling like I've
been blanketed by a thousand emotions, the major being loneliness.
I wanted to sleep with Planet in her small bed,
thinking it would be cosy and quiet and calm.
But it was too small for two and she's too tired
for anything.
So i looked through my book collection.
"Please god, just give me something."
And there i found my all-time favourite book.
A book that never fails to keep me company through
all my hard times.
Sunshine by Robin McKinley.
I went back to my pink room, turned on the lights
and rearranged my pillows, tuck myself in
and started reading the book.
And after some time, i feel like I'm home.
Peaceful.



Today i realised I'm really going to be an aunt soon.
And it scares me because i don't think
I'm a good role model.
I wanna change for the better. :)

love,
Sunshine

Going back to school wasn't a good idea.
I'm never going back.
JSS was never my favourite anything.
yeah I'm thankful for the girls i met.
but so wad?
Never have i ever went back to that darn place
coming home feeling good about myself.
Wad she said was hurtful.
I hate that place.
With whatever that has been going on plus that Jss trip,
of course i feel like breaking down.
But its all over.
Your past can only scare you so much.
It doesn't rain forever remember?

escape the fate

"make sure you're still alive,
just in time to kill you"


eventful or not.
damn these wounds hurt like hell.
days pass by damn slowly at one point of time
and rushes through you at the other.
do you believe that people really forgive other people?
sometimes i wonder why the hurt lingers on even when
you feel like you've forgiven.
the dragging time, it prolongs everything wrong.
Forbidden fruit tastes the sweetest.
Like all else wrong.
I've realised. I've seen. I've faced it at last.
The spaces between us and the next best thing
exists. And so with our other surviving champions
in this life.
What brings us close is not the thought
of missing one another.
To reach out is only through our prayers.
One reaches the other, one does not.
Why do we take so long to wake up from our nightmares?

Why cover up the truth?
i sometimes ask myself.
Oh fear.
In truth up to a certain extent,
we all fear the truths.
Even of our nature.
or Especially.

My daddy used to say,
that what we believe exist, exists.
To you, you do not exist anymore after this.
Just a hollow.
Do people sigh of pain or hurt
or just of relief?
Why do you feel your heart hurts when you
try to breathe so hard?

Life is so short.

Not good enough for truth or cliche.

Why Facebook made my [many] days..

Facebook.

After a rough day, other than friendster, i would definitely log into facebook. The "social games" is really refereshing. There's this amazing Mob Wars that let you feel rich [ooh and the billionaire application] and go fight with other people. Its the ultimate stress relief. HALLO. haha. And its so fun because you can build an empire and get to meet cool Mobster-buddies. So cool lah.
[yeeha i have been increaasing my mobsters. please join my mob if you love me.]
And where else can you spread your worldwide love so freely? Sending stickers and sending starbucks and armanis and LVs and everything over. Its so fun.
I'm dedicating my thank yous to my dearest friend, Facebook.

Oh man i loooovvvve holidays!

story story

hello baby.
ok i promise no more sad or angry stories today.
first, let me finish my gendang kasturi....


my exams are over!
so i am gonna plan my holidays.
1) clean my room
2) read all my books
3) play games till i cry
4) rest rest rest
5) after the second week, date-time!
6) class chalet
7) clean room
8) write poetries
9) paint
10) celebrate raya lah babe!
hahahaha

gerek seh!