Taking a leap of faith with just... faith.

hello world.
I guess this is it huh.
In about eight hour or so i'll be at the airport with my beloveds.

Yesterday so many things happened to me.
But it let me gauge my growth.
I know for sure that i am no longer the same me i was yesterday
I stopped a fight and managed to get the police to come.
I took responsibility over something that happen that doesnt involve myself.
I stood up to lazy fucks who just shrug off responsibilities.
I spoke my mind and was honest with a guy who lied to me.
I manage to control my anger although i was bloody pissed off.
I gave a liar a chance to make amends.

I dunno why but i can still feel the bitter taste.
I thought i could leave my past behind.
But what can i do when my past catches up with me?

Amy, i give you this last chance. Dun fuck up.
One mistake. Just one and you're out of my life for real.
But i dun regret giving this chance.
In the end, i dont want to keep on losing people that were important to me.

I do however, feel at loss that i could not be there for my nephew's cukur rambut.
For birthdays that i'd miss.
For the reunions i'd be absent for.

The last few days i have to be honest, i have been crying like fuck.
I realise that because i was wrong.
I thought i had nothing to lose.
But in actual fact i had everything i could wish for.

I love everyone of you who has been there for me.
Pray for my safety.
I'll always think of you.

lovelove,
Sunshine

I want my mummy.

Insomnia

So lets countdown 24+12=36
36 hours more and then pooooof!
I'm gone. HAHA.

I havent been able to sleep the last few days.
Its really pushing me to the limits.

I really really adore my nephew.
He is sooooooooooooo cute.

There were times when i am convinced that i have really given up on love and then i heard craig david's insomnia and i feel like i am in love again.

lovelove,
Sunshine

Leap of Faith

hello world.
I dunno how to really feel about leaving.
As the hour draws nearer, i'm going like
"is this for real?"
But it is what it is.
And i'm sure for all of us,
its about taking a leap of faith,
to leave our comfort zone,
to learn something way out of our depth.
I'm actually leaving in a few more hours.
Oh my god!

Today went out with a few of the K707.
It was simple but fun.
We have all finally reached year 3 together.
It was nice to just observe the close-ness of the class.
We laughed and chitchat and despite our many personalities,
i felt that we have a nice relationship going on.
I hope they are going to miss us!!
HAHA. Because i'm gonna miss every single one of them.

I'm k.o-ing now.
Good night my loves.

Lovelove,
Sunshine

one of the most complex things about relationships with other human beings is that we cannot be judgemental. With globalization and the acceptance of almost anything everything, it has become difficult i think, to define and draw the moral line. We apply this same concept in our everyday lives, at least for those of us who do, things go smoothly for people surrounding us. We see less friends hurt, less family hurt. And although we do feel the pinch sometimes, accepting things we actually cannot accept, we feel great that we just do, knowing that at least we give other people a chance to be different and good.

I was so close to being in love many times, but when i understood the difference in our lifestyle, philosophies, beliefs and everything else, i learnt to accept and be realistic.

It just wont work.

YOu know what? I actually feel ok.

Sanguine

This is the word that best describes you! The dictionary meaning of the adjective sanguine' is cheerfully optimistic! You are usually happy and manage to turn most negative situations into positive ones. Your happy-go-lucky, impulsive and adventurous personality makes you fun to be around although some people mistake your self-confidence for arrogance. Your sanguine disposition will help your life be a happy one; just be wary of dreaming about castles in the sky and forgetting to focus on reality.